On New Year’s Eve, two years ago, I published my first Medium article. It wasn’t very good, of course. It felt momentous, and I invested a lot of my sense of self into the occasion. I had just published. Sort of. Two years later, the magic is slightly worn. I haven’t written for most of 2020, … Continue reading My Two Years on Medium
Do I sound defensive? Now should be the time for I, the hobbyist extraordinaire. I’m at home, working in short bursts when my coworkers get a break from teaching their children. It used to be that my sick time each month would be used before it truly accrued, unable to go four weeks without an … Continue reading Why My YouTube “Career” Crashed and Burned
Should you hide thoughts from the people you love? Photo by Ilario Piatti on Unsplash It’s been a long time since I’ve written. 2019 was my year of writing. I made a debut on Medium on New Year’s, with an article about self-fulfillment and productivity that was written out of increasing isolation. I found myself sharing that article … Continue reading Making the Hard Choice to Block My Family on Medium
It's just not happening. Photo by David Travis on Unsplash I’ve been trying to complete National Novel Writing Month for at least five years now, without a single success. Hell, I don’t think I’ve written ten thousand words as a result of NaNoWriMo, which is a tenth of the goal. Maybe that fact should be … Continue reading I Failed NaNoWriMo for the Fifth Year in a Row
All great authors work on the fly, right? Photo by Robert Bye on Unsplash I have an image of an author, and it’s probably untrue. Frazzled, they work in the poorly lit corner of a coffee shop or a den. Paper is everywhere, even if they work on a computer, and they wipe at black ink … Continue reading Yeah, I’m Behind, Okay?
Matter is neither created nor destroyed - Antoine Lavoisier in 1785
I can't express it enough.
If you’re reading this, I must have reclaimed some amount of it. Photo by Fab Lentz on Unsplash I haven’t written in about two weeks. It’s funny, I’ve only this goal to write consistently for about two or three months. It’s a short time, but I’d filled it with promises. I’d write something every day, whether … Continue reading I Lost My Motivation
Is there a difference between being happy and being satisfied? Photo by Bernard Hermant on Unsplash There’s a line I kept feeding myself, before now. I wasn’t going to be one of those people who was always trying to change, because I wanted to be happy. To me, satisfaction and happiness were hand in hand. If nothing else, … Continue reading I Can’t Get No
And other emotional whiplash Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash My mother loves to tell the tale of how I wrote my first story at the age of three. It was a comic book, believe it or not. I never really kept up with the illustrating side. I couldn’t animate to save my life, though … Continue reading Trying to Write is Giving Me Panic Attacks